Wednesday, January 5, 2011
I never wanted to open you. I never even wanted to KNOW about you in the first place, so there! In fact, when they talked about you in the hospital, my eyes glazed over and I think I even put my fingers in my ears and started humming 'La la la la la.' That's how much I never wanted to think about using you.
Two years into the game and I never have had to open you yet. Oh sure, I showed you off to people - Grace's nurse at school, camp, and you just sat there, all red and foreboding. And when you expired, I even practiced on your old expired needles and vials. I thought you at least deserved to be used before I discarded you to medical waste. You must have resented that. Oh well.
Monday night though, you stood at the ready. Just sitting there on the shelf. Did you miss us or something? Did you feel me grab you and pry you open and feel my disdain for your existence? Oh no, you just felt the loathing, well, good, I did and I do. Loathe you I mean. The D I embrace, cause it's the only way I know to make it through this disease. But you, I can easily loathe.
You must have noticed the 30's that I couldn't get Grace out of for more than 25 minutes. It took two hours to get her to a rosy 96.(*Sorry if I gave anyone the thought that she hung in the 30s for 2 hours - my writing ain't grand folks. What, you mean you can't read my mind? ;0) You sat patiently waiting as I poured 4 juices down her and forced her to eat a banana at 10 pm at night. That was fun times, I tell ya. And you just sat. You even sat through the phone call to the pediatric endocrinologist on call, who just happened to be our lovely own Dr. B., at 11 pm. She told me not to use you just yet. HA. I waited out the low and sure enough, it took about two hours, but you rose and steadily rose.
I read about how you are being used in other families. It seems you have visited Caleb and he vlogged about you, and his mom Lorraine has posted about using you in mini-doses that is invaluable. I thought of her and Caleb on Monday night.
So, in parting, I just wanted to say while I appreciate you hanging around all this time, along with your twin buddy on our shelf, I am happy I haven't had to use you yet.
But I am glad you are here.
Penny and Grace
Posted by Penny at 9:14 AM