Wednesday, December 30, 2009
It will be one year with Type 1 diabetes on January 9th, 2010.
A year ago, I took her to the hospital ER suspecting something was up. In the back of my mind, as I parked the car that night at 10 pm, with Gracie in her jammies in the backseat, clutching her stuffed animal elephant, I thought ‘This could be something bad.” Little did I know it would be Type 1 diabetes. Oh sure, I had ‘googled’ her symptoms and juvenile diabetes came up as a result, but my child? Diabetes? No way.
I was so very wrong.
I will tell the whole story near her anniversary, to remember what we went through and how very far we have come.
For now, the new year. 2010.
There are always resolutions.
Things we could do better-more of-less of-not even think of-never do’s.
I surely will try to live with more grace.
I will try to always remember that it’s her diabetes and not mine.
I will tell her I understand, when really, sometimes, I can’t even imagine.
I resolve to always support her, through the rebellion, the tears and the hating of diabetes.
I will not let those people in her life who ‘know someone who suffered this and that complication of diabetes’ continue their conversation with her.
I will cut those people off in mid-sentence if I hear the words ‘complication.’
I resolve to be aware, all too fully aware, of complications, and to keep them to myself.
I resolve to always answer her questions about Type 1, honestly and truthfully, including those about complications.
I resolve to meet other little girls who have Type 1, so she can feel union with other souls.
I resolve to support myself through the diabetic online community, so that I can continue to care for her.
I resolve to see Gracie and myself as strong and competent.
I surely will thank those who have helped Gracie and me and our family throughout this year of challenge.
I resolve to keep on keepin’ on, fighting the good fight.
Posted by Penny at 8:59 PM